"I’m sorry, I’m sorry - I messed up again!!"

Background

Mayoi grew up in a harsh, high-standing household, with his parents having close ties to certain families, and bitter rivalries with others. The immense pressure his family put on him to maintain their reputation and be the perfect child was a lot for him to handle at such a young age. Eventually, he hid himself in the walls of their family home, which would then become the Ensemble Square building to avoid his family and other people, preferring solitude and darkness over human interaction.

However, Mayoi also served to be a gifted singer, and his family signed him up for several vocal lessons and local choirs, and then eventually enrolled him into Yumenosaki Academy. However, due in part to his preference for keeping himself hidden, his grades suffered to the point where he had to repeat a year, and his haunting voice and penchant for wanting to help suffering idols gained him the reputation of “the Phantom of Yumenosaki”. Eventually, because of a messy rift between him and his parents, he was completely cut off from them.

While Mayoi’s vocals were unparalleled, he found little success in trying to find a group that would actually take him in - that is, until Ensemble Square was founded, and he was essentially forced into the band that would eventually become “Alkaloid”. In spite of his protests, he was made the vocalist of the band at the insistence of Aira and Tatsumi, who both agreed that he had talent and that it’d simply be wasted had he been put in any other role. While it may not have been his choice, his time with Alkaloid has certainly been an interesting one so far, and not necessarily a time he regrets.

“I-I’m really not cut out for this sort of thing, a wretched being like me should just stick to the vents!!”

Headcanons

• Mayoi is trans, and he has taken vocal lessons to lower his voice ever since he and his parents separated. He wears a binder when he’s out in public.


• While he doesn’t look it, Mayoi is immensely talented with music. Aside from being a gifted vocalist, Mayoi provides the pre-recorded bass for some of their shows, and has composed a majority of Alkaloid’s backing tracks. However, his ability to write lyrics is somewhat lacking.


• Mayoi’s stage presence is incredibly powerful, despite his nervous nature. While he doesn’t become all that different onstage, he definitely gets a lot more intense.


• Mayoi is grossly agoraphobic and only goes outside and performs onstage when he has to; which is far more often than he would like.


• He has moles all over his body - one next to his mouth, one behind his left ear, two on the back of his neck, five on his chest and collarbone, and several more littering his arms and legs.


• He’s a very artistic person, and several of his hobbies reflect that - diorama and dollhouse making, doll repainting, embroidery, painting, sketching, and pottery are just a few of his interests.


• He likes to collect stuffed animals, and he hides several of them in the parts of the vents and crawl spaces where he sleeps most often.


• Despite how he looks, he actually takes good care of himself… Or tries to, at least. He’s shockingly good at self-care despite his circumstances.


• Mayoi is currently seeing a therapist.


• Mayoi keeps chapstick on him at all times. It’s a necessity when you live in a cold, drafty place. His favorite flavor is grape.


• Mayoi doesn’t trust anyone else with his hair, so he cuts and braids it himself. Unfortunately for him he’s also very bad at cutting it.


• He hates summer and winter since those months make living in the walls absolutely hellish for him.


• His love for grapes extends to many things - soda, juice, hard candy, gummies, flavors of chapstick, jelly - but the one grape-flavored thing he hates is medicine, especially cough syrup.


• He thinks most insects are cute… Except for beetles. His favorite insects are moths.


• Mayoi has ADHD, and while some of his stims are also nervous habits, his non-nervous stims include chewing on things and scent-based stims.


• Mayoi is absolute garbage at cooking and baking, so usually he just sticks to easy-to-make food like salad or sandwiches, or he just eats snacks from vending machines.


• During his time as the Phantom of Yumenosaki, he formed a close friendship with an idol he was helping, until one day, that idol simply just… disappeared. In reality, they just switched schools, but Mayoi never found out what happened, so the incident haunts him to this day, even if he has no idea what they actually looked like. Because of what happened, he has a hard time forming new friendships out of the fear that his friends will simply disappear on him.